Hi, I’m Criss! I’m 24, 5’3” tall, and currently weigh 133 pounds. I lost 64 pounds in the past 9 months, most of which was lost the first half of the year. But that’s not why I’m making this post.
Before I lost weight, I was obviously overweight. I loathed myself. I would wake up and then spend literally the entire day and night online, avoiding all social contact and hobbies. I didn’t know how much I weighed because I feared seeing the number. I avoided mirrors, never shopped for clothing, and hid my body in over-sized sweatshirts. I put aside dreams and goals, and wallowed in my self-pity. For years, as I continued to gain weight, I dreamed of being skinny, thinking everything would be right if I could just be skinny. If I could be skinny, I would be pretty. I would be happy. I would be free. Or so I thought.
After I finally started losing weight- healthily, I am quick to add- I started to come to a realization: I didn’t need to be skinny to be beautiful, happy, or successful. As I embarked on my quest for health, I became happier and happier not because I was losing weight, but because I was finally learning to love my body no matter what.
If I gained all of my weight back in a year, I will be okay. Why? Because it’s my body. It’s me. Sure, I’m covered in stretchmarks, and yeah, I don’t have supermodel proportions, but really, guys, who does? Quit comparing yourself to other people, and quit trying to meet some impossible standards of beauty. It won’t make you happy. The harder you try to meet those standards, the more upset with yourself you will be, because you’ll soon realize you won’t ever get there.
We’re all different for a reason. Who has the authority to decide what is perfect and what isn’t? If we’re all different, perfection is in the eye of the beholder. Don’t love yourself despite your big nose, cellulite, or fat; love yourself because of those things, because they are what makes you you.
So awesome & inspiring!
geeksexual asked: Hey, I saw you reblogged my photo, to explain the blurriness, there was a period of time in my old photo's that almost all the pictures I took were blurry, thats because during that time I had just bought this phone and on the inside of the lens was this weird yellowish protective cover that I didnt discover until I took the phone apart, I just assumed the camera was shit or there was something wrong with the phone. The "before" picture was taken during that period of time in the bathroom of my doctors office and I figured since I was there today I would mimic the picture for and "after". Thats why the before picture was blurry.
Hi Nia! Thanks for reaching out and for clarifying. Your transformation is mindblowingly awesome & I’m sure you’re extremely inspiring to many, many people! I didn’t mean any disrespect. If anything, it highlights how much better you look in the ‘After’. I always tell people to take ‘Before’ pictures bc it’s the best way to track progress. Understandably, most people are reluctant to document their ‘Before’ state, so they miss out on the satisfaction of seeing how far they’ve come. I’m so happy you kept the photos even tho blurry. Mad props to you for pulling off what so many people strive for. Keep going in the right direction and keep up the awesome blog!
Not sure why the ‘Before’ is so blurry but the ‘After’ sure is clear enough.
If you go back to eating junk, the weight will go back to your thighs.
Karena Dawn - There’s a reason why she’s a fitness model.
Fitness is so hot.